arrested by life

handcuffed

we step in the fire and incinerate

we fill-up with the anger,

the pain,

the projections

only to recoil

like an embryo in mother’s womb

actively refusing the spirit of openness

life is a lesson of love

life is a lesson in self-forgiveness

life is painful, and, joyous wrapped-up

we want to be worthy, acknowledged, and loved

these desires are symptoms

of a deeper ache

the self-reflective tension

trying to sustain itself

this emotional sustenance is grounded in this need to be mirrored

seen, felt and loved

In truth, in-depth, we are the transparency of love.

the desire to self-sustenance fidgets to fill us up

even the desire to grow self spiritually is self-concern

everything we do acts to relinquish our separateness

on the road less traveled to greater love and freedom

every thought, feeling, and action reinforces the journey

doing “love me” is the very act of unlove.

Holding back protecting yourself,

hoping to grow open

terrified of being open,

just a little to feel comfortable and safe

all emotional expressions are waves in an ocean of love

even anger can incite deep love

anger comes from unremembered love,

distracted by lost causes,

the heart shouts its love

“I can’t stand when you’re like this.

I want to feel my fullest gifts

I want to feel open to myself

moments require passionate interventions,

breath in love

I am love

I just forgot 

Lilith-2020

                           Self  Love