Most of the time we are vacillating between the past and the future. Ruminating our regrets and planning our futures. What happened to NOW? Now can be scary for some it requires showing up for ourselves, feeling ‘what is’ and taking ownership of what is happening. That can be scary and unfamiliar for some of us.
Living in the now can be equivalent to stopping and standing in front of the mirror and having a good look at ourselves, it requires being fully present. When we are not present, we become a victim of time. Our mind is pulled into the past or the future, or both.
We are always dreaming or thinking about our possibilities and we definitely roll back to the past thinking about what happened or what we could have done differently, you know, the ‘if only I’ did this, that and the other I would be___. And then there is the future we entertain, what is possible, if I do this, I can be or have or do that, rolling around in our minds. Then there is the ‘NOW’ the hardest place to be for most of us. That requires showing up for ourselves.
Don’t get me wrong here, it is natural to spend a bit of time thinking of the past or daydreaming about the future. We need to, it is supposed to help us appreciate what it is to be in the now. It is when our lives continuously vacillate between the two and skipping over the present moment that robs us of our peace because we can be beating ourselves up for shit that happened and become increasingly disappointed that things might not go our way.
Most of the time we are on automatic piolet with our lives ruminating over the negative aspect of our lives, the struggles we have had or are having, and we live in a state of fear, shame, and regrets. What this does is bring our attention to the future that hasn’t happened and robs us of the present moment of appreciating who we are from which we came from, our past.
We are habitual by nature, and that can definitely hurt us on so many levels, just because we did it yesterday doesn’t mean it is going to work today. The “NORM” is so subjective that we create fear in our lives and don’t want to be present because it is unfamiliar to most of us.
So, what do we do? Like any habit, we have to know it is a habit and that requires showing up for ourselves in the now. Time is the grand illusion, and we are controlled by it all day long. Crazy how that is. The past only exists in our minds, our future is yet to determined if at all. So what is left? ONE big breath, and the present moment. Can you feel that? Can you really feel what standing in the now feels like? That would require us to stop, look and listen, to be here in our bodies.
Bottom line; unfortunately we are all victims of time it is the way the world runs, that is always going to be, the clock is still going to tic-toc, it is what we have become accustomed to. This is why it is so essential to practice showing up in the now for ourselves, to appreciate who we are now, not live in the regrets of what use to be or the future that might not arrive for some of us. Those are the hard facts of life.
Self-love, self-awareness is what is essential to our well-being while we are here for this short time gracing mother earth with our presence. So let us be present. Let us find joy, and acceptance in ‘What is.’ That is where the best change for our highest self-happens!
There is no salvation to be found in time.
So relinquish to what is happening right now.
Wherever we are, let’s commit to waking-up, completely. Life will take care of the rest.
I am the rope in a tug of war, Between the future and the past, Stretching me out and opening me up, To see my core at last. ~Kaypacha